Belief
As a perfectionist you seek perfection around you – in people, in you partner, everywhere. Lack of perfection throws you off and you feel out of control. Without perfection life doesn’t make sense. It is perfection itself that keeps life organized, meaningful. Without perfection there would just be chaos. Without utter perfection all would be lost. Nothing would be true and real. Perfection is the glue that keeps the universe together. If there was no perfection where would we be?
Channelled Message
Perfection is chaos and chaos is perfection. The two cannot reside apart from each other. Perfection and chaos - order more likely, are two sides to the same coin. One cannot have one without the other. One cannot have freedom if everything is in perfection. If there is no room for chaos, there is no freedom, there is only rigidity. You might say you are very lost because you are missing the key core structure, the framework upon which everything resides.
Some might say "ultimate perfection" is pure bondage and "ultimate chaos" is the kind of freedom that does not give you the structure to grow. It is un-perfection. Confusing concepts I have made up – all a pallet for you to figure out. But they cannot exist without the other, and you must not strive toward either side completely. For one makes the other what it is. Opposites create each other. Without chaos you wouldn’t know what perfection is. Without perfection, you wouldn’t know what chaos is. And it is up to you to fully explore both sides to experience all depths, as far as you are comfortable going so that you can define perfection for you, and find just the right combination between the two. But, because you have searched it out, and because you’ve explored them, not because somebody told you to be this way or that way. That doesn’t help you grow in any way.
In your partner, you may see a lack of perfection. Do you see perfection in the eyes of your partner? He must think, God, everything she does must be so stinking perfect. Where’s the freedom in that? And yet it is freedom that you seek. And that is something that we must clarify for you.
The world around you is already perfect in all its chaos and all its perfection. I cannot judge the world. It simply exists because it is of my creation. How can I judge my own creation? You, as a human being, you love to judge – everything, including your creation, and are so hard on yourself. And, what you create doesn’t follow some idea of perfection. But I tell you your idea of perfection is not the idea of somebody else’s perfection. This you know. You are always forced to reconcile what is perfect for you, what is perfect for him. He seems to be quite content with the way you are in all his perceived imperfection. What can you find around you that you are perfectly happy with in its imperfection? Why does everything have to be perfect, exact, precise, narrowly fitting your standard of what perfection is?
All my manifestation has many sides, many faces, many ways, with different proportions of black and white, grays and colors, and it is all perfect in all its amazing complexity. The whole world was too lineally defined for you when you were younger and you were taught ideas that were way too rigid, way too narrow, based on somebody else’s idea of what perfection is. Over time you have adopted them as your own and now it is your yardstick. And yet there’s nothing wrong with that. I do not judge. I simply show you that you are a product of everything that you’ve gone through. That it is not who you truly are because here in your perfection you seek freedom. Freedom is the unknown. The unknown is chaos. So here you are yourself, perhaps wanting to get out of your own rigid structure of who you are, and everything around you so that you can truly experience the joy and freedom of imperfection. Your definition of perfection is too rigid. Your definition of perfection has been placed upon you, thrown upon you, forced upon you, but it is not who you are.
This text is adapted from a client channeling session.
7.23.13